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Fall 2020 I took my guitar down by the river on a gorgeous sunny day for a change of scenery and to practice. As I approached the park, I saw police presence everywhere. They were on foot, on horseback, on bicycles and in cruisers. As I slowly worked my way into the park, I paused to ask an officer if I should turn around. He said it was safe but that they were looking for "a female in medical distress". He seemed quite casual about it, but it was clear from the maybe 100 officers in the area that this wasn't a casual situation. I parked and walked down to the river's edge. I sat on a picnic table and played a bit, observing the joggers, picnic-ers, strollers and dogs, as well as the ever-growing search. It didn't take long for officers to start asking the public to help keep an eye out, and soon we had all paused our activities to join the effort. They told us that she absolutely needed to be found and they needed to make sure she was okay, and if we found her, we were to shout loudly and an officer would hurry over.
As I searched, I wrote this song.
I was struck so deeply by the idea that this woman likely had no clue anyone cared about her wellbeing, that she was probably in physical or mental pain that seemed insurmountable, and that she may have felt completely alone that day. Meanwhile 200 other human beings had come together to find her and help her. It was beautiful and heart-breaking at the same time. And I wanted so badly for her to know and feel that collective love.
I had to leave before she was found, and I don't know the results of the search.
This song is for her.
It's also for anyone who identifies with the word Mama.
It is for those who've experienced loss, and for those who have lost hope. It's about women holding each other up, people holding each other up, and it is meant to remind you that even in your darkest hour, you're not alone. You are trying your best. You are loved. We've got you.
xo Sonia
lyrics
*Special thanks to Lisa, Allison, Judy, Tammy and Hayley for singing the last chorus with me, and for always being strong voices in my life.*
MAMA
Chorus:
Mama we're trying to find ya
We're out here trying to find ya
So we can show you what you're worth
Yeah Mama we're trying to find ya
We're all out here trying to find ya
So we can love you where it hurts
Verse 1:
You're all alone now
It's the last thing that you need
If you'd only told us
We'd have been able to say
This is temporary
Everything will change
And we'll laugh together
Again some day
Verse 2:
Some days are harder
Than you'd hoped they'd be
Some nights your body
Doesn't feel okay
So let us hold you
We will hold you up
Wait it out together
Until you've forgot
credits
released January 7, 2021
Mixed & Produced by Paul Zacharias (Wheelhouse Sound)
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